Rollarcoaster day

Today has been a rollarcoaster of emotions.  One minute I'm really excited and then next I'm fighting feeling overwhelmed.  What didn't help was I wrote a post and saved then checked it and all that was there was the first paragraph!  :(  Oh well so I start again.

I came across this while looking for poetry items for a friend.  It really touched me to the point of tears.  I blame "Paper pregnancy" hormones.  LOL

God Chooses A Mom for A Disabled Childby Erma Bombeck
Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressures, and a couple by habit. This year, nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of handicapped children. Did you ever wonder how mothers of handicapped children are chosen? Somehow I visualize God hovering over Earth selecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes, he instructs his angels to make notes in a giant ledger.

"Armstrong, Beth; son; patron saint, Matthew.

"Forrest, Marjorie; daughter; patron saint, Cecelia.

"Rudledge, Carrie; twins; patron saint.... give her Gerard. He's used to profanity."

Finally, he passes a name to an angel and smiles, "Give her a handicapped child."

The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy."

"Exactly," smiles God. "Could I give a handicapped child a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel."

"But has she patience?" asks the angel.

"I don't want her to have too much patience or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wears off, she'll handle it. I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independance. She'll have to teach the child to live in her world and that's not going to be easy."

"But, Lord, I don't think she even believes in you."

God smiles. "No matter. I can fix that. This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness."

The angel gasps, "Selfishness? Is that a virtue?"

God nods. "If she can't seperate herself from the child occasionally, she'll never survive.

Yes, there is a woman I will bless with a child less then perfect. She doesn't realize it yet, but she is to be envied. She will never take for granted a 'spoken word.' She will never consider a 'step' ordinary. When her child says 'Momma' for the first time, she will be present at a miracle and know it! When she describes a tree or a sunset to her blind child, she will see it as few people ever see my creations.
"I will permit her to see clearly the things I see --- ignorance, cruelty, prejudice --- and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely as she is here by my side."

"And what about her patron saint?" asks the angel, his pen poised in midair.

God smiles. "A mirror will suffice."

While I was reading that the song "I won't let go" by Rascal Flats was playing so there I sat at my desk at work trying not to be a crying mess. LOL 

I also have been watching with gratitude Sophia's FSP grow today. 

At 12:11 it was at $1539.10 

At 1:51 it was at $1544.10

At 3:34 it was at $1564.10

I was also given $1 by a co-worker, another friend gave me $10 and yet another friend who I sent an email to said she passed it around her office and had $40 for me.  I am so appreciative of all the help and support I have received on this journey.  Thank you for joining the journey.  All the support I have received (emotional, spiritual, and financial) is so appreciated! <3